first love kills.

like a storm you came unwanted
with those beautiful eyes of yours
small talks and warm smiles
enough to draw my attentions to you

not sure what do we called this feeling
because baby, i don't do love very often
no.
i don't do love

i always knew i'm a simple girl
who just craving things i can't have in my early days
love and attention
as simple as that.

i just want to be wanted
is it hard?

sweet words over gentle gesture
you win my heart so damn easily
becoming my main source of happiness just like that
never knew i could be this naive
never knew.

smile ear to ear when i see you smile
skip a bit when you called me 'babe'
felt the butterfly when you text me first
my cheeks on fire when you called me pretty

my mind is a mess because of you
and i don't mind a bit

the old me changed
a powerful urge from the bottom of my heart,
shocked me

now i don't just want to 'take' the loves
but, i want to protect you
i want to make sure you have reasons to smile
i want you to be happy.

this is new
this feeling.
and i don't know what to do
i'm scared

babe, i'm scared.
i told you i was scared

"you must be scared of me changing my attitude to you?"
yeah..
you were right babe
but, i'm not afraid of your kindness tho
i'm afraid of the withdrawals

which happened.
way faster than what i could imagine
way faster.

day after day, it get worse
then it got better
then it got worse on the next day
then it never got better..

"babe, i'm all yours"
eat shit.
" just i want to see your face"
asshole.
"i'm doing this because i think of your feeling"
bullshit.

"no, there is nothing i don't like about you"
ffs, stop lying.
i knew you lied to me!
you liar..
you liar.

you are so mean.
you are so mean.

babe, i love you,
i love you so damn much..
but you are so mean
and you have to own that

i gave you the power to destroy me
and you used it to the fullest
how impressive.
where did you learn all of those, huh?

you just knew the perfect way to hurt me
everything
felt like hell
did you intend it that way?
or you just have talent for breaking woman's heart?

i knew we can't be together, i knew.
i knew your reason for breaking me up is valid, i knew.
but everything was way too fast
babe,everything was way TOO fast
to the point where i wondered if..
everything that happened just a big fat lie

why can't you give me this privilege a bit longer
this feeling.
just let me breath the air of your affection a bit longer
let me hug you, hold your hands, kiss you a bit longer
let me being lost in your beautiful eyes while buring my cheeks red
let me having a reason to tell you how much i love you

cause baby,
i just want to be in love
and to be loved.

but you walk away
far too easily
testing my sanity
was it ever really love for you?
was it?

"im just better hiding this kind of things"
then you should be an actor babe
because damn, you fooled me completly
thinking you never been hurt because of this
thinking you never been in love with me before
crying from the deepest of my lungs
breaking every pieces of my heart
sucking every drop of my tears
you are good at that

believe me, you hurted me more than what you think you were

seeing you moving on hurt me
imagining another girl got to stare at your beautiful eyes is killing me
the idea of you having a new start..
..i can't

but you are smiling now.
the smile that used to make me smile
the smile i'm dying to protect
the smile that used to be my painkiller
your smile.

you. are. happy.
and now, i'm not needed anymore
i have to let you go..
i know..
but babe, it's hard.
guess you just don't care that much, do you?

people said time heals
well, it's gonna be long one for me
but i know i will heal
and you will my beautiful "lesson" people talk about

thank you
thank you for your kindness
thank you for your time
thank you for the things you did say

i discovered new side of me because of you
and i'm thankful for that
until this message has written
i love you.
still.
live well nif.

Where Is The Lo(v)e

[I wrote this on 13th]

14th February is at the edge. It's coming again, for people who passionately saying their lust and ego are the true meaning of love. It's kinda funny to think people will spend too much money on gifts for someone that won't be there at the hard times and those cheesy captions on instagram that definitely sounds stupid, which makes you questionable about how exactly their brains work. Don't got me wrong guys..., I do NOT hate valentine day, I just do not looking forward to it (?) Yeah, yeah probably because I'm single and lonely or whatever the reasons you think of.

I got a friend who constantly saying they're (yes, gotta use "they" so you won't know the gender) pitying me because I'm single whatsoever, to the point it annoy me. I am a chill girl, although you say something really bad about me, I won't take it seriously or I will forget it the next day. But! this friend, who already got a mate, omg, keep saying things like I have the urge to have a boyfriend. Like I'm dying for affections, which I'm not, because I'm not like them, HA! I got so much affections from people around me and I think it's enough for me, at least for now. I don't think I need those affections in sexual way yet. Like hell yeah, I'm still 19 y.o, so green and still don't know how umami taste like.

When I was in the last year of junior high school, I got a huge crush on one of my classmate (I wonder if he's gonna read this) On valentine day, that year, I got him a chocolate and a letter saying "Love You". The letter is actually from letters of a newspaper that I cut one by one, because I'm too afraid he would know it was from me if I write it by hand. I put it at his "kolong bangku" when no one around, and dash away after that. To be honest, to think I really did that, just got me jaw drops, like.. damn I'm so freaking brave,lol. And the funny thing is.. he was asking me if I saw someone put chocolate at his table, and I answer "It's me, fucker" Lol, no way I would say that.

I was lucky enough to date this guy (since I used to like him), but we broke up after 3 months, why? because of my ego. You could say that I'm not mature enough to suppress my own desire for someone else sake at that time. Because.. isn't that the meaning of being in relationship? being tied down, haha *insert bdsm pun* Well, actually I still can't do it now too. That's why I choose not to be in relationship yet, because I could see it would be a hopeless kind. For me being in relationship is quite a big thing, I mean, the purpose of "dating" is to get know your partner better before the marriage right? (well, if you planning to have one). If you can't picture yourself with your partner in few years later, then... what's the point of it? is it just for fun? or for killing time? well.. I'm not one of those girl so that's why.

I'm in one phase of my life where I'm really happy with everything that I have. My family are healthy, my study is doing well (I guess, lol), my friends are kind, and a lot more. My life is pretty good and I'm satisfied of that. So, for my dear friend who is annoying sometimes, because you keep saying stupid things like you are stupid I don't think I need to take your advice to heart because I know myself better than you are, I choose to enjoy my life at fullest and be happy in my way than being in some troublesome relationship which only hurts people feeling. For everyone who's single this year.. please don't look down on yourself, just focus on improving yourself, and believe me.. it's gonna worth in the future. And for my friends who already got someone to fuck boyfriend/girlfriend, I hope you are happy with your choices and don't be a jerk.. like 'that' friend.

So, yeah.. Happy Valentine Guys
with love,
Trisna

A Little Love Story Won't Kill(?)

Have you ever fallen for someone so hard before? 

You don't even know the reason why you love him, but your eyes always looking at him every time you have the chance. 

You're too afraid to make a conversation and makes you look like you're the bad one.

Tried so hard to act like a perfect lady when he's around, 

Every thing that related to him just makes you happy to know,

Re-read every text or chat that he sent to you,

Smiles for no reason every time you remember cute moments with him,

Felling stupid when the just read your chat,

Tried so hard to impress him so he could notice you,

Stupid isn't? It's really strange, how could a girl change a personality when she's fall in love. To be honest, I'm not really into those kind of things. "Love" is such a heavy word. No one knows the real meaning of it. I love my mom, I love my dad, I love my family so much.. but the ''love'' for my family is different from my love to my pets, to tasty food, to my friends and other things. Love could be someone's everything and it could be nothing for some people. Love is something that you can't ask for and really complicated. "Cinta datang karena terbiasa", I think this sentence is quite right, there's no love in first sight.

But for me love is such a mood-boaster.. it makes you happy then it hurts you. It keeps your smile on your lips then it asks for your tears.. It's kinda funny to write something like this..because in high school I tried so hard to not fall in love, especially with "boys as a boyfriend". I used to think that in relationship is really troublesome.. don't ask me why. My first boyfriend was such a good guy (now ex), I accept him because it was a trend to have a boyfriend (I know I was a jerk). He's really kind to me (too kind), always ask for my opinions, laughs when I told him my lame jokes, remember my schedule and a lot more sweet things that he did for me. And... we broke up.. for no reason (I'm the one who is wrong). After that, we don't talk anymore, we chose different high school and never meet after that (until today). It kinda sad to face this reality..the facts than we won't be ''that close'' anymore. 

In high school I repeat this thing one more time. Someone confess to me, I have no reason to reject him.. and I just accept him without think about how we gonna be first. We broke up after a quite long time together. The reason? this time it's not 100% my fault, but I still don't want to talk about it.

After I broke up some people tried to make a move to me, but I always act like I don't want them in my life. The fact that everything won't be the same anymore always scared me to reply their kindness. "Is this right if I'm close with him?" "Will I regret it?" "Should I?" "Will this hurt me?"  

so.. is this right for me to love you..? when there is chance I will get hurt..

Dunia Baru

Kata orang kehidupan SMA itu adalah momen terindah yang nggak bakalan dilupakan, tapi masa sih?Ingat nggak sih, saat kalian baru lulus SD, lalu ngelanjutin jadi siswa baru di SMP? Atau saat kalian baru lulus SMP dan diteriman jadi siswa SMA? Rasanya itu beda, rasanya itu kaya masuk ke dalam dunia baru yang benar - benar asing. Dunia baru yang penuh kejutan dan selalu berhasil buat kalian menangis (aku aja sih kayanya, wkwk) 

On my last birthday, my mom said, "Oming bukan anak kecil lagi, oming sekarang udah jadi anak kulian, harus bisa jaga diri, harus bisa mengatur semuanya sendiri" And I was like....standing there with blank mind of mine thinking, "What...". And my sister sent me a letter with a statement that I can't forget, "It's collage life you know! your very last opportunity to actually living the youth". It's pretty sad to know that statement is true. My life is changed since forever and I don't realize that.

   

Have you ever think how much your life change since kindergarden until now? I have, just now. No more "no candy until you eat your lunch", no more "I don't want to take a bath yet so let me play a little bit more", no more "you are on internet the too long and go to the bed" etc. There are a lot of things that I don't have to do anymore. But... there are more things I have to do by myself, here, alone.

So please think about these questions, sudah berapa banyak dunia baru yang kalian masuki sampai saat ini? Sudah berapa banyak langkah yang kalian ambil untuk keluat dari zona nyaman kalian? Masih yakin masa SMA itu "dunia" yang paling indah dan nggak bisa dilupakan? atau kalian yakin bisa menciptakaan dunia baru yang jauh lebih indah di masa mendatang? We never know what will happen in our life. That's why, be prepared.

ps. don't forget to be happy

All About YG's Newest Hiphop Group : iKON [History, Profile, Songs etc]

               Hola halo guys, first of all I want to say sorry because I haven't post anything for months. I got really busy in my last year of high school, I just finished my national examination so I kinda "free" for now. Okay, so today I really want to talk about my new favorite boy band from YG family. Yes, they are iKON. The group was first introduced in 2013 through the reality survival program Who Is Next: WIN as Team B, which consisted of B.I, Bobby, Kim Jinhwan, Koo Junhoe, Song Yunhyeong, and Kim Donghyuk. Team B, and their adversaries, Team A, were both formed from trainees of YG Entertainment. Since Team B lost to Team A, they lost the opportunity to debut as Winner.

               At first, I really want team A to win, because Jinwoo's sad story about his dad (idk probably around second episode) I was like, "YG should debut team A, team B is still young, they can wait". Although it changed after I watch the next episodes. Both of teams were working so hard for this survival competition, but team B was a bit better than team A. Every time I watched team A performances, I was like "oh man, they are too ordinary" (don't hate me, just trying to be honest) but team B performance always left 'something' that 'wow' you and the judges think the same too. Team B kept win all the monthly evaluation but they lost at the second proper stage and the next stage. Team A really rocked the stage and their song way much better than team B at that time.

              This is my opinion, I really think that YG wants to debut team A in the first place. Two members of team A already known in public because of K-pop star season 1, if you watch WIN, you must know about it because they keep saying it over, over and over again. Even the leader of team A already have a proper debut as soloist. Of course team A the way more popular than team B, and this really disadvantage team B because the winner would choose by fans vote. Second, team B wasn't well introduce on WIN show, some of people says "because they don't have story to tell yet", but that's not right. Do you know how hard it is to  sacrifice your youth doing a cruel survival show with unfair treatment? nope, you never know until you be the one who play the game. Well, at least YG (or mnet) can introduce them properly even though they don't have stories 'as many as team A' to tell. Third, if you watch the mix and match ep. 1, there was statement where YG says "I'm glad that they (team b) lost so they can learn more'', see? YG never wanted to debut team B in the first place, he wanted team B learn to be stronger by doing a cruel survival show. He wants to debut team A and introducing their potential trainees (team B), so both of them got the popularity. Probably right now you think that I'm hurtbutt or something, but I really want you to know that someone cares, not me but someone. 

              After team B lost I have to say that I kinda hate Winner (team A), but not anymore because they are working so hard right now, so they worth it. ^^

              Watch team B's last performance on WIN, and you will cry like a baby ;_;

baby don't cry ;_;

              In June, reports had begun circulating over yet another reality survival program involving Team B. Two months later, YG officially launched the concept of Mix and Match to the public, confirming Team B's participation. More details about the show were announced during the official press conference held on September 2, along with the introduction of the new trainees, Jung Jinhyeong, Jung Chanwoo and Yang Hongseok. The format of the show would involve following iKON, YG Entertainment's upcoming boy group, on their road to debut. In addition to a new name, Yang Hyun Suk also revealed that B.I, Bobby and Kim Jinhwan were set members of iKON, leaving the remaining 3 members of Team B to battle for one of 4 places alongside the trainees. iKON's official line-up would be determined by a voting system, with 30% by the judges, made of YG artists, and 70% by the viewers during the course of Mix and Match airing. Voting began in and throughout October, starting with official fanmeetings held in Japan, China and Korea on the 5th, 11th and 17th, followed by the on-site voting during the third and final match by both attendees on the 22nd, and ended with online voting held between the 30th and 31st.

[new trainees] chanwoo, hongseok, jinhyeong

              This is truly cruel. I cursed YG for hundreds times while watching this survival show. I remind you, if you have a weak heart, don't watch this show, because it will make your heart go crazy. In M&M they (team B) have to against each other. It's a fight  between your friends, between your siblings and between your family, could you imagine how these boys feeling at that time?
              Although actually YG did this for team B's sake. This is my opinion, YG wants to debut Team B after the attention that they got on WIN, in sort they're famous enough to debut, but remember the statement he (YG) made on win which the loser won't debut at least 4 years later or the worst will disband, makes him can't debut them easily. So, YG have to make another survival show to debut them, but it can't be like the previous one and finally YG come out with idea "rearrange" the group which actually he wants Team B + 1 new member. Why can I say this? It is because:

1. The way to choose the members is fan voting, so basically the original member of team B is more popular then the rest of them (except for chanwoo, lol)
2. YG knows team B's fans loyalty, so there's no way we would choose the new trainees than the original members 
3. The new trainees are really new, like for 2 months or 2 weeks (hongseok) they have joined YG. Of course their skills are below the original members (my opinion). I believe YG has trainees that the way better than chanwoo, hongseok, and jinhyeong, but YG chose them because of "the potential" they have. Yes, they have potential not skills yet. (But the end of the show, hongseok decided to leave YG and join Cube Ent)

love this performace the most :)

iKon's members profile:

 

real name : Kim Han Bin (김한빈)

stage name : B.I

birthday : October, 22nd, 1996

blood type : O

• iKon's leader
• Becoming a YG's trainee in January 2011
• He was a contestant of Show Me the Money 3 (a rap survival competition by Mnet). He got eliminated in episode 7, Top 8 in May 2014
• He is featured artist in EPIK HIGH's Born Hater with Beenzino,Verbal Jint, Mino of Winner and iKon's Bobby
• He had a collaboration with MC MONG Indian Boy in 2009 
• Composing labelmate Winner's debut single "Empty"
• He appears in Taeyang's Ringa Linga as cameo (try to spot him! lol)
• He has a younger sister named ''Hanbyul" 
• His height around 177cm and a Korean
• Voted as #1 leader on "Weeky Idol" 
• Scared of bugs (on M&M), obsessed with Micky Mouse and Pringles Sour Cream flavor
• Admitted he has bad eyesight
• The first member of original team (team B)

hanbyul (Hanbin's younger sister)

 

real name : Kim Jinhwan (진환)

stage name :Jinhwan

birthday : February, 7th, 1994

blood type :A

• iKon's main vocalist
•  Jinhwan has an older sister with 6 years gap, named Kim Seiyeon
• YG said that he resembled BIGBANG's Taeyang
• His mom is a business woman and a violinist, she became a violinist in Jeju Symphony Orchestra for 26 years.
• He speak foreign language pretty well because her mom is a linguist (such as japanese etc)
• He has a dating rumor with AOA's Jimin (denied)
• He gave a ring written ' WINNER ' on it all the members of Team A and Team B. (on WIN)
• Join YG in early 2011
• His sister own Instagram (@coco_ksy)
• He keeps a jar in common room and everytime the member curse they will drop money in it.
• The third member that join the original team (team B)
• Appeared in Taeyang's Ringa Linga MV
• His height is around 165 cm and a Korean

• 

  his mom and his sister

  
  

real name : Song Yoon Hyung (윤형)

stage name : Yun Hyeong

birthday : February 8th, 1995

blood type : A

• He first entered YG in April 2012 to become an actor but Ceo YG changed him to a vocal trainee instead . 
• Has an younger sister named Song Eunjin, his sister own an Instagram (@_eunjinsong) (his sister is really pretty but all of the videos are creepy, lol)
• Lip balm is the most treasure thing of him
• His family own a BBQ shop
• His height is 177cm and a Korean
• He likes to cycle
• The fifth member that join the team (iKon) 



his lil sister

hell shit yeah~~

real name : Kim Jiwon  (바비)

stage name : Bobby

birthday : December 21st, 1995

blood type : O

• Hot as fuck (lol)
• Bobby's family is very religious so he grew in church . At church , he learned to play guitar , drum and piano . 
• Join YG in 2011 (in New York)
• His family lives in America
• He is amazes by the rap skill possesed by WINNER's Mino . Plus , he wants to have a voice like him.
• Participated in Show Me The Money 3 with B.I and eventually become the winner . His winning speech  telling his mom to start packing because he was gonna buy her a house in South Korea.
• Lee Haru ( Tablo's daughter ) favours him the most . 
• Had collaboration with Hi-Suhyun (Lee Hi and Suhyun from Akmu) in I'm Different (2014)
• Had collaboration with Epik High in Born Hater (2014)
• Had collaboration with Masta Wu  in Come Here (2014)
• Included by CQ Korea as Male of The Year 2014
• Has a tatto at the center of his back
• The second member that join the original team (team B)
• He appears in Taeyang's Ringa Linga as cameo (try to spot him! lol) 
•  He appears in King of Youth MV(?) (Mnet) (it's like a rap song MV for SMTM4)
• Born in Virgina, USA 
• His height is around 177cm

real name : Kim Dong Hyuk (동혁)

stage name :Donghyuk

birthday : January 13rd, 1997

blood type : O

• Lost his father when he was 8
•  Join YG in November 2012
• Ceo YG daughter's Jang Yujin favours him the most . Then , YG said to Donghyuk " You've won " (lol)
• Donghyuk was a contestant of JYP audition in 2011 and won the title. (Hongseok also one of the contestants and got into top 10)
• He is an inteligent student at school and the members don't understand why he wants to be a singer 
• Was a JYP trainee
• The last member that join the team 
• His height is around 175cm

my faveee!!

real name : Koo Jun Hoe (준회)

stage name :Jun Hoe

birthday : March 31st, 1997

blood type :A

• Joined SBS Kpopstar S1
• Appear in Star King as a mini Michael Jackson and he adores Michael Jackson so much
• His height around 182cm and a Korean
• Join YG in April 2012
• The forth member that join iKon
• Very talk active, once YG said his personality like 2NE1's Park Bom
• When he saw his members, he believes that YG doesn't chose them by their look (the fuck Junhwe XD)
•  Never wore Jeans in WIN, and only have one pair of jeans that Donghyuk gave to him on Cristmas

 

real name : Jung Chanwoo (찬우)

stage name : Chanwoo

birthday : Janyary 26th, 1998

blood type :A

• He appeared in The Heirs and Bos Over Flower as young Lee Minho 
• Appear in DBSK's Balloon MV as cameo
• When he first met the members , he is afraid of B.I . But now , he is afraid of Bobby the most 
• He said the cutest member in iKON is Yunhyeong and the most handsome member is B.I
• His height around 182 cm
• Join YG in 2013 by a private audition
• Has a pet parrot named, Ttoki
• Debut as a child model in 2005
• The only member that wasn't from team B 

cr: 

wattad

myline-kakao

some random blog and wikipedia

my brain (lol)

official webs

My First Story Profile (Japanese Band)

                     Holaa~~ Today's post will be different from the others! lol, not really actually. Today I gonna talk about my new obsession band, and they are not from South Korea. Well, nowadays I kinda bored with those Korean boy band. They give the same feels in every their comeback ._. (not bashing) you know.. their songs mostly about love and I kinda sick of it. Because it's a pop song, I got bored easily after listen to it for times, and it sounds like plastic sometimes. If you feel the same way like me, you really have to read this post :)

                      Okay, so, I officially fall in love with One Ok Rock! their songs like... AWESOME. I recommend all of their songs (my fave is C.h.a.o.s.m.y.t.h) A few days ago I finally know that Taka (vo) has a little brother named Hiroki who run a band too (My First Story). Nah.. actually I accidentally found their official twitter account and thinks the face kinda bit cute, after I listened to their songs, the vocalist's voice sounds like Taka, and I finally know he (the vocalist of my first story) is Taka's little brother. I tried to find everything about MFS but there not much, probably because they debut on 2012. So here we are, I'm trying my best to find their informations. (I'm not doing One Ok Rock because there are too many sites that  talk bout it already ._.)

 

             They formed in 2011 located in Shibuya, Japan by Hiro is the vocalist of the group (He is the younger brother of ONE OK ROCK's vocalist Taka), Nob is the bassist of the group (Also member of the band fromus), Sho is one of the guitarists of the group (Also member of the band fromus), Teru is one of the guitarists of the group, Masack is the drummer of the group (Also member of the band fromus) as members. Their first debut album was released on April 4, 2012 entitled 「MY FIRST STORY」under the Label “Intact Records”.

Discography

The Last Round Story
[Album] • 3 July, 2013 • 3 tracks

Tracklist
1. 最終回STORY
2. EXPERIENCE
3. 「花」 -0714-

THE STORY IS MY LIFE
[Album] • 6 February, 2013 • 8 tracks

Tracklist:
1. preservation
2. The Reason
3. The Story is my Life
4. Gift
5. Lose your mind
6. Silence Word
7. Where come from…
8. Deserve!!

ALBUM
My First Story
Released: April 4, 2012

Track-listing:
1.) Institution
2.) Bullet Radio
3.) Second Limit
4.) Warning
5.) Awake
6.) Still
7.) Calling You
8.) Take it Back

Official Twitter

Official Website

Official Facebook

Official Agency Youtube

 

Members Profile

(probably not really accurate, because the trusted sources are too minim)

 

Moriuchi Hiroki (vo)

Jan.25th.1994

Twitter

Blog 

the white shirt one

Nob (Bassist)

Oct.14th.1987

Twitter

Blog

 

Tsuchiya Sho (guitarist)

March.28th. 1984

Twitter

Blog

Instagram

 

Nishizawa Teruki (guitarist)

May. 28th. 1992

Twitter

Blog

 

Kojima Masaki (drummer)

 Jan. 03rd. 1988

Twitter

Blog

well that's all that I can give to you. I know it's not much because they just debuted few years ago, so yeah.. ;_; Anyway, thanks for reading my blog, it hits 17.500 views already >w< /kya kya/ bye~ I will post something later!

my fave!

Sources: 

furahasekai

wikipedia

last.fm 

jpopasia

Some Fanpages on Facebook 

Official Websites

Three Main Reasons Why EXO Fandom Called as The WORST

                   Hey yoo, I just finished my final examination and finally have some times to write something here. Well, since this is my blog, I should talk more about my opinions instead album review, shouldn't I ? First of all, I want to remind you, please be a smart reader. This is internet, you can't forbid or blame someone to tell their opinions on something that they own (I won't blame you to tell your opinions about my posts but, please don't overdo it). Second, there is no hate here. I have never talked about something that I hate, I mean... why should I bother to know something that I hate when I have a lot of things which I adore. So, we deal there is no bash here? Okay, this problem has been a trending topic for such a long time. "EXO's fandom is the worst" and I won't deny it. I have been in EXO fandom since wolf or growl era (yeah haters, not from their debut) and I have to say it, this fandom is the worst. Or worse than fandom that I have joined (like Shawol, Bestfriend, Blackjacks etc). At the first, I was really amazed how they (another exo stans) collect all of the information, subtitle exo's reality show in one day, took exo HD pictures from all around the world, gave so many gifts to them on their birthday and many more. But... the more I know about it, I feel more fearful. They act like EXO is their God (well, some of them) and whoever dare to get close with EXO would get bash. Isn't it crazy?  So here some reasons why I thought EXO fandom is the worst.

• Too Many Immature Fans and Sasaeng Fans

            Immature fans means an immature person behaves in a silly way, as though they are much younger than they really are, to react everything about their idosl. As what I say on my another post before, mostly exo fans was born in 00 liner, or still a teenager. Many of them don't know how kpop industry works, I mean... they hating on something which is really normal. For example, there is issues, D.O and Girls Day's Minah dating. Because, they wear the exactly same shoes on a tv program and people just bash Minah before the know the truth about it. ISN'T THAT STUPID?! At the first, I thought it was funny, how they make jokes about it but, as times flies the jokes isn't funny anymore and it's kinda mean. Some of them even mention Minah on twitter and bash her like a shit. What the fuck dude, is that what human usually do? I have an EXO varsity, so that means EXO and I dating? Well not every EXO fans do something like this but, Immature fans just like ink, once you put it in the water all you can see is black.

 

             Sasaeng fan is a private life fan, they kinda bit like a paparazzi but, even worse. They do not hesitate to do anything to get what they want, or to "protect" their idols. They take their idols, as their ideal boyfriend or girlfriend type too seriously. They are the fail transition, from someone who recently like 'the idols', to be a loyal fan. Based on me, there is 4 phases in fan-girl life, first, when you don't know anything about your idol. Second, when you want to know about your idol and being a little bit hyperactive and noisy about it. Third, when you know more about your idol and you got mad when there is someone who talk bad or someone who like your bias too (more like hate to people who still in phase 2nd), and the last phase is, when you are being a true fan-girl, who perfectly support your idols whatever they do (like... if they are dating, you are still support them with their gf / bf, not basing them) or a loyal fan. Sasaeng fans is the fail transition of the third phase to the forth phase. They love their idols way too much, which makes, they can't contain the feels when they know their idols have a relationship with someone else. SJ's Heecul ever said that, because the idols always say they love their fans, their fans are the number one etc, when it comes to a relationship, the fans feel betrayed and start make problems (this is fucking true) And... EXO has a lot fans who act like this which makes the image of the fandom worse. Want to know better about sasaeng fans? read it here

the manager out of control and hit a sasaeng fan. And guess what, the manager is the one who is blame.

they are laying down so exo can't leave

• Fake Rumor Spreader

        Well, I have to say, this is the stupidest thing that I have ever seen in my whole life as a fan-girl. The fake rumor spreader. There are a few type of this lil shits , the first one is, someone who are from another fandom. So basically, they feel jealous because exo got too much popularity (more than their idols) and start to make some fake rumors to knock they down. The rumors could be anything, about dating, crime, sexuallity etc. And the second one is the fake rumor spreader that from exo's fandom itself. Their imagination about something that is not confirmed yet go wild, they take their opinions as a fact and start to spread it on sns. The other exo stan who read that will assume it was true and start makes their opinions as a fact again. And that thing will go over and over and over again. Usually kind of these shits start from sns which the main spreader is big account. They big acc who has a lot of followers will spread the rumors much easier because they are "trushed". Well I just want to remind you, we are all the same... just potato with internet, so pleaseeee.. don't take anything too seriously on internet.

• The "too much watch drama" exo stan

         First....don't ask me why I named they like this-,- Okay, I start think this is kinda problem when I saw one of my following friend on twitter bashing a fansite unnie from China, whose bias is Baekhyun (you know who she is). She said that it's okay for Kris to leave exo, as long as Baekhyun is still there. A lot of "too much watch drama" exo stans, start to bash her because of that. They think, BASHING PEOPLE BECAUSE OF THEIR CHOICES REVERSIBILITY WITH THEIR OPINIONS IS RIGHT. //sigh// First of all, life is cruel, get over it. Second, you are an idiot. EXO now got their popularity down because of us, their fans. Do you know about that? All of exo need right now is support, those fansites decided to support exo with or without kris, even though the reason because their bias is still there, so what? if you bash them like that, isn't you the one who isn't support exo? do you think bash people like that will bring kris back? lol nope. That act only makes kris and exo even sadder. I just want to confirm something, basing fansites like this isn't protecting anyone, you just a lil freak that is stupid. Doing something that you called as "protecting" kris only makes exo-m in a danger place to promoting their songs in China, it also harder for Kris to do his activities later. 

         I'm not an anti, I'm doing sport and my motto always, "we came as one, we lost as one, we win as one". Yes, it must be great if exo can stay as ot12, but guys... "life is cruel"   We can't stay blaming SM for something like this. If there's no SM, there's no exo. And stop saying that, all of this happen because SM has a new ceo. Guys, that ceo needs money, everyone who works in the company needs money. Will they do something bad to their artist who works and earn money for them? Will they do physical punishment when they even do not let artist have a pimple? so, please stop saying something like that. If we keep saying SM is the worst, their stock will go down, who do you think will take that? we? no, their artist? yes, it is exo. What if exo can't have a next comeback because of this? What I'm trying to say here is 

"Please stop being too emotional, life really is cruel, can we just get over it? If we can't support exo as ot 12, why don't we support exo as ot11 and Kris with his own decision?so please, I beg you.. don't make this fandom even worse than before, because we are one, aren't we? so we have to act like one too"

exo, we are one. let's love